Life::A State of trance

Sigh!!

2009-10-03T10:10:00.000+05:30

Here I am sitting in class, it is weird, it is miserable, I don’t know why I am sitting in class. Somehow I feel wasted, and screwed. My mind doesn’t work, my heart doesn’t pound anymore.. I was living, someone told me last night I need to live again. Where is all the vigor? Where has all my interest gone? I feel , I can’t put it in words… I feel weak, and completely bored with life. I feel like I don’t want to survive, I want this course to get over… I thought MBA was the best time in someone’s life, for me it is turning out to be the worst. I cannot seem to figure out what is going wrong.. I somehow can… It seems pointless. Life’s a bitch… I can’t get sleep, it takes me an hour to fall asleep after lying down, the smiles are fake, the smiles are a cover for what is inside – I feel I have no one who understands me… Everyone around me seems to be running ahead at a faster pace than I am, everyone around me seems to be charging ahead, and look at me stuck where I am… it feels more bad, it feels worse, just an addition to my woes. God! When will this end… This is not me.. This is so not me.. I somehow miss my life, I wish I could turn back time… Sigh L

???

2009-10-03T00:02:00.001+05:30

I came to this course with great energy... I feel I am not doing justice to the course.. I feel I am doing nothing, and I am wasted.. there's something missing, I know what it is, which is out of my hands and control...Sigh...

I hate tennis...

2009-09-21T23:18:00.003+05:30

Game, set and match... it is the end... it is... and i dont like it one bit...

Nameless...

2009-09-21T12:48:00.002+05:30

Today is a holiday,I am groggy... I woke up... an I have a weird thought up my mind - Whenever you are close to someone, and they try pushing you away from them with whatever they do... you end up getting closer to them. Fact of life being, you never can run away from things you don't want to.

:O

2009-09-19T20:15:00.002+05:30

I dont know why I am writing this post, probably the MBA education is getting a little too over my head... You know what, I was sitting in class today missing my friends and few more people in life who would make me smile any single day. The chosen few who would make me smile and bring life into me any single day. A person who I would do everything for, I dont want to take names, but the person would definitely know who I am talking about. There are times in life, when we do good things and great things, but life still feels so incomplete without those people. The person who would keep me going all the time, life feels so wasted without them so meaningless. God Bless them with all happiness and care and love. I would just wait again and again till i talk to them the next time.

What do I say??

2009-09-18T22:41:00.002+05:30

I am missing a voice... Its weird... I am zonked... Its weird when you have no control over decisions, and there is not much you can do!!!

Life and its state in trance...!!!

2009-07-23T14:58:00.003+05:30

So here I am, today being the 23rd of July... In four days is my mom's birthday...I hope i continue to remember it for the next four days cos this has been striking me in spurts... the work load is high... I need a break....Multiple people around me with multiple emotions...

I am just happy, plain happy... my life is good... very good... things are settling, I just need to get my acads in place... I know i can still do better...

The only thing that worries me is the emotions of people around me... One of them is very very tensed... very occupied.... one is very happy for her friends, one is confused with trivial issues... the question lies... how do I help all of them keeping my emotions intact??? Hope for the best... I know each emotions relates to one person... and the persons will know when they read this....

MBS is great, the term is going to end... there is a week and half remaining... there are loads of exams... I cant wait for the next term to get started.... I cant believe a quarter of my course is already over :O...

My new high....

2009-07-16T20:44:00.002+05:30

I love this song....
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?'
Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine
.In mine when I'm asleep.And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Rollercoaster continues...

2009-07-11T13:20:00.001+05:30

It’s been close to 3 months since I have blogged. Life has changed, thrown challenges at me over the last three months. The good have become bad, the bad have become good, things that I thought would work, didn’t, and things that didn’t , did… My business school has been a great place-we have had a lot of fun over the last 3 months. Life is a rollercoaster, a fucking bad one…. The strongest survive and the weak perish… The value of the strength of the mind has been realized. It has been a real interesting time. Life changes and the need to adapt to changes is important. I miss my parents today, I haven’t spoken to them at length ever since I joined this course – Life does so much that you never find time for people who actually love you and actually stand by your side. In fact the ones that stand by you are the ones you hardly see. This post comes across with a sense of belief, resonance and character. The worst is over, the best is yet to come... I have made great buddies, adds to the list of my ever increasing list of friends… To the MBS fraternity…. Cheers!!!!!

The move on....

2009-04-20T20:41:00.002+05:30

It was just about 2 weeks back when I blew my head off on Anubhav and Srikant, when they weren’t letting me sleep at 3 in morning. It was 1 week back when I was having a heated discussion with Anubhav on their decision to rent a new apartment, it was 2 days back when I was giving dada my usual gyaan. Life is a game… I used to hate, love my roommates, I used to get very very annoyed with them. I used to laugh at them… laugh with them… advise them, take advise from them…
My life is moving to a different level, I have moved to my relative’s place in Mumbai, I am going to wuit my company, this is my last week at work, I have left my apartment, I have this weird feeling within me… I miss the time I spent with them, though we didn’t spend too much of it… I miss staying with the boys… Its true when they say, you realise the value of people only when they are not with you.... Cheers guys - thanks for adding another eventful chapter in my life....

Bizarre Thoughts!!!

2009-01-28T20:48:00.002+05:30

Neha and I had an out of the ordinary dialogue on relationships. That popped up a subject up my mind. What does it take to find the correct match???

Chennai Trip - Second Leg... The final one..

2009-01-25T11:22:00.002+05:30

I leave today.... with a heavy heart.. my Chennai trip comes to an end... I did practically nothing on this trip as there were a very few people here... and those few were busy working... The little i went out was to the Bessi beach with Anusha and Diksha on friday night... there are more beggars and sleazy people than sane homo sapiens on the beach... I probably had the nicest drive that night recollecting old Mumbai memories with an ex-mumbaite :) the jain lady... I met up with my college buds yesterday i.e. Saturday... caught a couple of drinks with them...
My Mom left to coimbatore last night, I dont know why I had mixed emotions.. I was feeling a little sad :O... probably cos she left before I did an i probably wouldnt be making it back to Chennai for a long time... It was a weird emotion which I cannot describe in words... That sums up my trip... It was a good one, I think finally i spent quality time with my parents :) ... Something that they always expected me to do over 2 years now.... I have about 24 hours to recollect my thoughts... get set for Patni Computer Systems day after ... SIgh :O

Chennai Trip - First Leg

2009-01-20T10:04:00.006+05:30

So I am finally at home... I reached Chennai safe and sound, on time, on Friday night... My mum also arrived on time... thankfully... I spent friday night chatting with my folks till about 2 in the morning... Saturday was ok... I didnt do much, I visited dad's office and got prepared for the party and pooja which we were going to have on the 18th... I was at the airport in the evening with Manish to pick up Mr. and Mrs. Bhatnagar - Dad's friends for close to 30 years... - They are Shikha's Mausa and Mausi... We were also surprised by Dad's other friends, Ramdas Uncle and Cauthy Aunty who had come from Muscat just for this occasion.... Later that night I headed to Zara's with Neha, Srujana, Prithvi and Sonia... I almost ditched the plan that night seeing the number of people at home - I would have gotten murdered by Neha Parnandi, had I not gone that night...
18th Morning started with a pooja - Sudarshana Homum as it is called - I was up early on the 18th morning, and attended the Pooja which went on till about 10 in the morning... Over the afternoon, Manish had come home - we decided to give my dad a bottle of Johnny Walker Swing... We went upto Alsa Mall and bought a bottle of the same... We had close to about 25 people at home in the evening for the get together thaqt followed.. I was lucky to have alcohol from dad's priced possessions - his Glenn Fiddich.... The scene was on till about midnight... and thats how the Sunday ended...
19th Jan was a lazy day... I had not had much of sleep - all family and friends wanted to go Shopping - I decided to stay at home... We all went out for dinner post which I headed to Neha's place for about a couple of hours... She leaves today, all my dad's friends leave today... Froom about 15 people at home 24 hours back - it would be just Dad, Mom, and me..... :(
Half my trip is over... 4 more days to go...

Chennai it is...

2009-01-16T17:26:00.002+05:30

I am at Mumbai airport - my flight is in 40 minutes... I have a whirlpool of thoughts running through my head... I could not have had a better homecoming than this time, I meet my mom at the airport- she lands 20 minutes after I do [if our flights are on time]... I am leaving behind a rough patch... a rough ride which was more of an educational lesson... I have learnt so much in Mumbai over 2 years... this place is fantastic, cos you get belted and your transform as an individual...

I cant wait to get home... have Neha ke ghar ka andhra khana... Sambhar and Rasam... I have been craving to have south indian food...this trip has a lot in store... and yeah above all... it is my parents 25th wedding anniversary...

Ok I need to board now... :)

Masakali Matakkali....

2009-01-07T23:38:00.002+05:30

Off late, Sonam Kapoor is looking astonishingly pretty n drop dead gorgeous... My pick for the new year - Masakali Matakkali from the Movie DELHI 6

:) :) :)

2009-01-05T23:20:00.002+05:30

Shreya Raghavan - my best bud... is engaged... couldnt be much happier.... and what topped it all is, a conference with Shre, Ne and Cheeks :)

New Year Calling.....

2009-01-03T22:18:00.003+05:30

Its that time of the year again, new years it is.... I have this lame feeling inside me as if nothing has changed, nothing has altered... it feels the same.... thats not too much of an issue, I have a lot of things up my mind... it is time, for bigger and better things to come... it is time for more problems to prop up, I guess I would be better equipped to handle them. I cant wait to get home, spend some time with folks, the phase between October to now has been a bummer on the personal front... a good week away from Mumbai will give me time off to settle down, consolidate myself and come back with good spirits.... it will also help me spend good quality time with my parents, and my best friends... Neha is in Chennai, I cant wait to see her... there is so much of catching up to do.... Manish is going to be there - as always - my best bud.... and to top it all up, it is my prent's 25th wedding anniversary.... :-). Its a good good package to get to my favorite city - Chennai - my roads, my city...
As for new years it was a good -different from last years - [ spent the night yapping with Neha last years in Chennai] - I met up with my favorite - Shikha Bhatnagar for dinner last night [2nd January]... Shikha, Rita, Srikanth and I spent close to 3 hours dining at Goa Porutgesa.... Further to that Srikanth and I were gifted with a great train ride from Dadar to home at 1 AM in the morning. I guess that was the most pleasant journeys I have had... [the train was empty] :O.... Signing off... Thanks to all beloved ones who made my year in 2008....

#$%@%^@$^@%!#@$!$%

2008-12-13T14:19:00.003+05:30

I do not know what the caption means, I do not know what life means, I do not know what world means, I do not know what love means.... I do not know anything, nothing, everything, nobody, somebody, anybody.... Well that is what this is , do I even know what I am writing here??? How does it feel when life backfires on your face, how does it feel when everynight you go to bed, you got a thought in your mind, when you wake up, you think exactly the opposite... how do you feel when you know within yourself that you are an extremely vulnerable, defenseless, susceptible, and you hit rock bottom... you find yourself probably 10 feet inside the ground, you itch on doing things you cant do...you wish on a million things which dont happen... you like the glossy outside picture, but you feel sick, franctic, frenzied from within.... You know your true self from inside, you can hide that from the world - at the same time you run from yourself... What do you do when you see your inner conscience laughing at you... I wouldnt say laughing, but I would say ridiculing, mocking.... Its insane, I dont know... It is like the world is at one end and you at the other.... it is like my nerves my heart, my brain, my body is all strectchin two ways apart... and pulling you down... What do i do, what do i do, what do i do.... its like a bell that rings for eternity...

If you fear the men who came by the boat, fear also the men who came by vote!!!

2008-12-01T23:50:00.004+05:30

Views, Outlook, analysis, scrutiny, feedback, statements...loads of them over one week. The attacks at Mumbai are the hot topic, they need to be, 10 men brougt the city to a standstill... 10 is the number given, dont know how many there were... Post the incident we saw a lot of top heads rolling, the ministers resigned, no one had any answers to what had happened... No one wanted to be answerable, they saw resignation as a way to get out of all this.... this doesnt solve our problem does it?? Are we safe?? Answer - a big NO!!! I heard this today : " All the top politicians have security, and if the government cant give us security, give us our guns so that we can protect ourselves". It is really lucid... politicians, are not doing anything-the opposition blames the party in power, does not want to do anything about the situation. I know one thing, even if the opposition was in power, the same things would have happened. We dont have good options to choose from, all want the power without responsibility.... I am sorry to say, I am ashamed of people in politics today... They let the country down... :-(

Expectations

2008-10-11T19:18:00.003+05:30

Expectations - One of the most common topics of discussion. Everyone has expecations, parents from their children and vice versa, people in relationships have expectations from each other.... Talking about the latter, the lady feels man always has a lot of expectation from her, the man feels the same.... Talking about it to my best bud about issues confronted, i came up with a conclusion that the most vital thing to do at anytime in a relationship is to sit down and converse... converse, with an open mind, be ready to listen, hear out your partner.... Looking into a lot of arguments that people have in relationships, most of them are unnecessary, useless... Only if you could sit down and talk and come to a mutual conclusion all of them can be avoided... if not all most of them... Love with happiness is important, as one of my friend writes up her blog, I agree... happinees is the most important thing, but the road to happiness has seldom been thought about...
Being Negative about fights is the worst thing you can do... cos fights happen due to expectations that are not met... It would be more sensible to think about how to avoide the situation going forward, making your point clear, in the most amicable way... than brooding about the past... Committment... If you are in it commit to it, dont think about anything else... this is it... aggression is desired to the maximum.... Work on a relationship... its for the good, look forward and look positive, and trust me it pays over the long run.... Work together cos its about you and someone else... trust the person you are with to understand you-the aggression comes in there... And always believe that no one is perfect - all can be wrong... everyone... Its you who make the best out of your partner, dont give up on him/her... if he/she is the one...

Might sound like a stupid write up... implement these... it does all a world of good... Parents, Girlfriend, everyone!!! Cheers!

???? Clueless!!!

2008-10-11T19:05:00.003+05:30

Haven't blogged in over 2 months, I have the guilt within me of not blogging. It has been a rough ride over two months, tides turned, situations confronted me I saw a lot of happiness and a lot of sorrow. I was talking to my friend yesterday, and yes we picked on the most common topic relationships.... Discussing for about half an hour, I was in office-8:30 PM it was, I was tired after 12 hours of work. Concluding , we decided that all relationships have issues, and the ones who say they dont are faking. Loads of thoughts came up, loads of issues come up, the most commonly being expectations. I realised on thing at the end of it, expectations are very different from wither end, the man and the lady.... No 2 individuals in a relationship are similar, cos no 2 individuals are similar... basically signifying, however good the relationship is, the people in it are no way similar... each individual is different and it is undersanding, that is the basis of the relationship.

Culture Curry!!

2008-08-11T17:40:00.003+05:30

With all the mess in life that is happening, I have finally managed to develop a new hobby. My mom is proud of it... but is worried I would forget the GMAT and spend half my time in the kitchen. I am so into cooking now... Over the weekend, we prepared, south indian Vathakozhambu (hope i spelt it right) and Chicken Hyderabadi. It tasted awesome... I need to move into some other styles of cooking... I wish my brother-in-law reads this post, he would be proud of me!!!! Slurrrp!!!

Mind & People....

2008-06-29T22:42:00.004+05:30

Is understanding someone so difficult??? Why do people say they understand you, but later you feel they dont understand you one bit... Why do people, do things that you dont like saying they are doing it for your good... Why do people, be happy with you, but the moment you expect something out of them , they do exactly something, that you dont want... why do people,who you like make you feel so empty... why do people, not do what they feel and do things, for others... why are people so confused, and not know what they want... why do people, think one rough patch is the end of all... why do people not know how to handle confrontations... why do people be partial and take you for granted... why do people make you feel shallow and demeaned as ever... why do people not understand what is right/wrong, and still claim to be close to you... why do people, want something and do something else.... why are people so not prone to changes... why dont people get over the past... why dont people want to accept reality... why do people set double standards... why do people do and say things for the moment, and make all extinct the time the moment is over... Why do people, while knowing you still say they dont know you... People... and the mind... the 2 biggest traitors in life!!!

The appraisals....

2008-06-15T12:27:00.002+05:30

Its been a long hard one and half years for all of us, from the Sept 4th batch, the most wanted(for all the wrong reasons)... It has been a mxed experience for all of us. A lot of talk has happened on how, good /bad the apapaisals would be... Patni is a low payer than all other IT companies in the market.. and with the market being low we didnt know what to expect... It has comee out well, for me atleast with money not being the criteria... I wanted a good, name, a good rating an I got it.... good appraisals in my terms, a wee bit disappointing, with probably justifiable reasons... So we went and celebrated... on friday night, in a pub called XTC. We were regulars, there, had a lot of fun... Arun, myself Anubhav, Vishwesh, and Sudipta A.k.a Dada... All's well, the aggression is on, going forward, would be a new page in the book... A lot of me that people dont know, is going to be seen... I think Govind, knows that, and Arun knows. With high hopes, I head into the next year... :-)

Ronaldo-Will he move???

2008-06-09T10:58:00.001+05:30

I wished for a holiday today, it didnt happen... Finally the traffic got to me this morning... I am in a little different state of mind, with respect to yesterday, probably cos it is a Monday morning. The Euro's have kicked off, I am rooting for the Portugese and the Azzuri's. Portugal, has played its game, won it... the Azzuri's face the dutch tonight. I was going through the articles, about the portugese victory, about Ronaldo being given the captain's arm band. I am proud about it, he is a Manchester United player. I have the Red Devil Blood in my veins. The question being, he wants to leave, and wants to leave to a club called Real Madrid, which I hate only for the reason that it regularly buys, the best players from Manchester United... I am a little, wary about this transfer, I dont want Ronaldo to leave... He needs to be at this club, he needs to stay here, for himself, for the fans, and for the club...!!!! Just hoping, Ronnie, is wise, and stays back at Old Trafford.. after all we won the double this year.... Sigh!!!

Rains the arrives :-)

2008-06-08T21:02:00.004+05:30

After a torturous 3 months with the heat, the rains have finally hit Bombay... and me is the elated!! We have been bracing oursleves for this for a while... Thursday was the day, when the rains hit Mumbai, and brought along with it... traffic. It took me a couple of hours plus to reach, home, but the weather overshadowed the disappointments of the delay. Friday, was normal, not too bad. Drinks with the boss was accompanied by a little bit of rain. The weekend is worth mentioning, it was raining all the time. I promised De that I shall not talk about my Saturday afternoon with her, but, I cant help myself. Im sorry De. She dragged me across half of Thane, in the rain, lost her moms umbrella, made me buy one as well. Apart from all this, convinced me to have Pani-puri in the rain. Sunday it is today, its rained a lot more than any of he previous days... I wrote my mock and came back for lunch, only to find, the dry, drab neighbourhood of mine was lush green. I couldnt help myself from taking a few Photos:::!!! This ones the one from my room on the 7th floor. We got wet in the rain as well, had a nice kilometer walk in the evening, after getting drenched. I have not loved the rain more. I am just waiting to see what the month brings along... Sunday night, we are all praying, for a holiday tomorrow.

The last leg of a long vacation!!!

2008-05-18T19:37:00.006+05:30

Here I am.... Coimbatore Airport... my flight is late... I have had a long and hard day... My sister just got married... I have been up since 4 AM... I have work tomorrow... and i dont see myself reaching home befor midnight....Sucks... at the same time... I am elated abt a good long vacation I have had... though it has not been a vacation of sorts... I reached into CBT on friday morning with KLZ who accompanied me for the wedding... I guess we came to a conclusion that night on the train... We joined school together cos we were destined to meet.... After a rickety ride on the train with no sleep at all, we spent the day doing actually a lot of work... which evantually felt like nothing... it is probably confusing.... What I am saying though is what I mean. Dad me and him checked into the hotel.... slept like a log till the evening. We then headed out for dinner, evantually ended up into this funky Pub call Psychedel... 3 of us were in there for about, 2 hours... and probably my dad rocked the most. We finished at around, 11:30.... stepped and and went on a tour to find a place to eat... We f ound one, evantually headed home at 12 ish... Next day... whoo... loads of work... running around.... then the wedding... i think the best event in life... My sister... we are more like own brothers and sisters... it was cool... awesome, traditional... the celebrations were ecstatic... tears rolled down the eyes all uncles and aunts... i think it came right down from the heart.... there were a couple of conclusions from the wedding!!!!

- Would the rest of us get married like this... I mean its cool, but its also, a little, strenuous over 3 days....
- I am tired of food... I have been eating and eating and eating and eating..........

its 8 now... I think I shall finally board in half an hours time... If I dont... I shall write another post .... sigh....

Vacation - Part 1

2008-05-14T13:35:00.003+05:30

With a close to heavy head...( Office issues getting to me)... I came into Chennai on the 9th.. I truly needed the break... I had a couple of friends on flight... so the journey, was better than usual ( I am way to restless even to sit for a couple of hours)... My vacation so far, has been everything but the usual... Sleepless nights... and no friends, is something that I have not been used to.... the day after I landed i was, at the airport again, in the afternoon... I saw Priety Zinta... no guesses why she was heree... Her team was playing Chennai's team here.. Chennai Super Duper kings as we call them.... At the airport, it seemed that every car, cab , rick was heading towards our place... (there were a lot of people at home and a lot more expected)... occasion being house warming function of my new house.... this function rolls over to another one... My sisters wedding in coimbatore on Sunday... The crowd hence, moves on from Chennai to Coimbatore... feels a bit like MTV roadies.. all but a few move on from one destination to the other.... Over the last 3 days... I hardly have met anyone, apart from the beshtest... KLZ.. We been out 3 evenings... one evening out for dinner with nooshi and pratu... Yesterday, we watched, this movie called Kuruvi... Shit man... the most daring thing i have done on the trip.... Dad myself and KLZ move on to coinbatore tomorrow.... Wedding details to be updated!!!

Memories:

2008-03-31T16:12:00.003+05:30

I just thought of the first incident last night at dinner, and it brought me back a lot of old time memories:

- Beer mixed with pepper and salt - Shreya - Zanzibar
- I lost my phone battery cover - Nikhil - Speed
- French fries at 4 AM - Shreya, you definitely know when this was.
- Anna.. Burger na 2 bun - Nikhil - Eatalica - not difficult to guess what state I was in...
- Bollywood night - Bikes - Shreya and Neha and Mahaneeya without her purse...(She lost it)
- Akka Kadai - third Sem - Saturday - Special class - Ciggy... - Paul - One moremysterious person
Thats all i would like to mention... though there are a million more... I miss you guys big big time!!

Dilli!!!

2008-03-21T23:19:00.004+05:30

Ok.... Holi it is...and I guess I am at the place where I need to be... Delhi!!! I hadn't been to this place for about 15 years till day before yesterday... Its ok.. Im ok with the place... though I am doing a lot of lazing around... Landed in at 11 PM... on wednesday... slept and got up at 11 the next morning...nice feeling when the rest are workng their asses off at work..... I was at home till afternoon... and then headed out to the parliament house in the evening.. the house seriously kicks some ass.. Uncle's the Director of External Affairs in the Parliament house... courtsey to him I got an entry into the Lok Sabha... its awesome...... Came back home at 6 in the evening.. Had dad's friend and his children coming over, for dinner... As I expected.. Shiuli, Zebu (Dad's friends children) and I headed out separately to TGIF... I got back to their place at 1:00... I was up till 5 talking to them... Havent slept... That ends Day 1 in Delhi... I have lazed around throughout the day... Went for a drive with uncle in the evening... There are people home.. who keep mentioning the fact that wen they saw me the last time, I was 3 years old!!!... its funny, but its ok... I am all set to play Holi....!!!!

A mixed bag of emotions!!

2008-03-13T09:14:00.006+05:30

There is too much happening around me at the moment... Stuff at work, is back to as normal as it was... the mentor sorted shit out, like nothing had happened...That's so the usual.... Arun and I back on normal terms again... I have the senti message he sent me saved in my inbox.. He is so sure he is gonna repent it for life... that is the high for this week... things are back to square one, I love my work, and love my team... in good spirits for the BU meet tomorrow... This is all yesterday - the happiness in giving Ms. Soumya the news that she was on the waiting list for glakes was clubbed, with the sorrow that I wasn't... Skit is on for the BU Meet... there is a lot of masti happening... The low's..... Dad s terribly unwell... Delhi trip seems to be scrapped for now though mom is pushing me to go ahead and take a break for 4 days.... Its not about Delhi... It s about spending some quality time with folks that i really wanted to... Anyways, thats heights of confusion... TISS interview dates are out... 15th April it is... a month to go... I have been there earlier, but didnt make it, so thats a worry on how TISS is gonna come through... If TISS doesn't I am happy with work, i would love to be here for a year... at the same time, would want to get into TISS, have been gunning for this for 3 years now.... All this is one day, is too much to handle... Arun was trying his best to make me smile... Appreciate the efforts of the guy... I finally did... I know I need three persons now around me to talk to... Mr. KLZ - He's in Mumbai on Saturday... Apart from him I dont think ill get to talk to the other 2 ... Ms. Silveranklets and Ms. Schmetterling... Miss you guys...

Screwed, Confused!! grrr....

2008-03-09T22:02:00.003+05:30

I am in a sad state at the moment... One of the days when i really want to pen down exacly my state of mind at the moment... Frustrated, irritated, confused, scared, angry, its all me at the moment... Glakes didnt happen, thought i gave my best interview of all times...Man United lost, a small low point over the weekend.... negligible... had a tiff with the boss... my mentor... the last thing i needed.... to sum it all up, a huge fight with this guy called Arun, my best bud, my closest over 2 years...I just hope i come through this, this has been so fa the worst weekend of the year...

Top Down Under

2008-03-05T12:09:00.004+05:30

This is truly unbelievable.... I wrote of the Indian team, when the dropped, Sourav and Rahul for the tri-series.... The young team is fantastic... after all the spat the team has received, in Australia, they have responded, in the perfect way... The Aussies have been humiliated... Ricky ponting said that, his team wouldnt need 3 games to win the tri series... 3 games were not needed... it was all wrapped up in 2 games, not by the Aussies, but by the Indians... Sach was absolutely amazing, he was at his best.... The only sad part was, he was out in the 90's for the 7th time in last 1 year.... We seriously kicked some ass in the finals.... Team India has done us proud, we only hope that, the consistency remains..... I still hope Sourav and Rahul find a place in the team, they are, the best in Indian Cricket even today.... After the bachcha's won the World cup, we wrapped up in style.... Cricket has given us a lot to smile about over the last 3 days..... Hoping for many more to come!!!!

Mumbai=Delhi

2008-02-07T21:43:00.000+05:30

This is awesome... the winters in Mumbai are finally awesome... the temperature's are finally on par with Delhi!!!!... its close to 9 degrees, in mumbai... sitting in my apartment on the 7th floor, its an experience to sit on the window , look at the highway below, and do the usual... its bliss!! I exist in 7 degrees... For a person who has lived in Chennai for the last, 8 years, where the temperatures, are hot hotter and hottest, wearing a jacket is unusual, the cold weather is unusual....They say the winters will run out by this weekend, i just hope it goes on and on, before the summers run in.... All say, that, Mumbai is a city of, surprises... finally the unexpected, weather, has proved all of them right yet again!!! I love this city of surprises, I love Mumbai!!!....

Life on a high!!!

2007-07-23T17:26:00.000+05:30

Life is on a high..... you bet... a lot of a work, and a lot of fun... Cheeku AKA Srikanth is in town, so is Praneet... its a good feeling to meet old ones, especially, when all of us a living a new chapter, compared to the one we we were in when we last met... Cheeku and I and chicken spring rolls has been the story over a few weeks... Spring rolls with chicken and, jalapeno's and cheese..... i know one person is gonna be jealous.... BTW that person is the the new high in my life....Wat do u say blankie....?

Cracked Life:::::

2007-04-23T20:12:00.000+05:30

I have a fractured ankle, I limp to work...I asked for an off, as I needed to rest...I wished my injury would not aggrevate....But then since I had worked my ass off for 2 months...my boss wants me to work for another week...its nice to see that people would miss you at work, but should I really care???? how would you feel in my position....I feel pretty shitty as if my hard work has lead to them taking me for granted....I might catch a flight bak home tom!!

It's Been long::::

2007-04-15T13:38:00.000+05:30

It's been long since i wrote a post here.... frankly i have not had the time.. life s brought about a lot of surprises, over the last 2 months...

I have finally got what I wanted, my frnds back here in Mumbai would know what I am talking about, I am living it up... loving it, though life's all of a sudden become more hectic... MOre is not the word....

Man Utd. are on a high, with Ronaldo, signing his contract again... we will be rocking for years to come.... Indian teams in a mess... sad that their loss to Bangladesh spoilt a night of my trip to Goa, but finally, who cares, they don't why should we????

Mumbai's the place to be... I used to wonder when Sweta used to say that people, who have been brought up in Mumbai, will find it tough to survive elsewhere...I got my answer.. she was right....not for the first time....

Abhi-Ash seem to be on the front page of every paper, things will never change yesterday's breaking news informing all where the laddoos for their wedding wil be brought from... thats how life is... Life's a bummer as I used to say....it's very true...

Someone's being telling this to me now for long, that I have changed a lot... that someone was right i guess...

Its time to make one more trip back home... meet the loved ones, but I guess coming back this time will not hurt as much as the last time did....I know why and a lot of them know too :)

When the going gets tough.......

2007-02-19T17:02:00.001+05:30

It's not been the best of days for me, the last fortnight being terrible, and Giri's tranfer news to Chennai, its sad that I have experienced certain things I never wanted to..... As this life of mine rolls on, there s a lot that I miss, a lot that I wish I could do, a lot I hope for....

Just typing out a few things I so badly want to do:::

* A smoke with Jagdish at Sai

* A dinner with Durga : Cos she makes me forget all

* A talk with Manish at the temple; I am pretty sure he knows where this place is

* A drink with Dad, before dinner, would love listening to his stories

* A pink lemonade a Shreya's place, she makes it damn well

* Pulling Neha's leg, that tops my list

* A chat at Rado with Rohit, Manish, Navneeth

* An SRK movie with Shweta, you bet, that's number 2 on my list

* An aimless 11.00 drive to Ascendas

* A late night hookah at Mocha

* All of us at Speed at saturday night

The consequences of a belting given by Mumbai apart from a lot of fun that I have had........

Career Song!!

2007-02-06T14:36:00.000+05:30

This is something that all would ve experienced..atleast most of you I know would have...Check it out...

Career Song - The 8 stages

1. when in college : Hum honge kaamiyaab, Hum honge
kaam iyaab ek din.....

2. when giving interview to Multi National Company: Tu
hi re.. Too hi re ....tere binaaa main kaise
jiyunn....

3. waiting for interview result: Intehaa ho gai
Intzaarki.. aayinaaa kuch khabar mere yaarki ...

4. just joined: Too cheez badi hai mast mast.....

5. after some time: Ye kahaan aa gaye hum??

6. After some more time: Naa koyi umang hai, naa koyi
tarang hai,
meri jindagi ek kati Pathang hai (booohoooo)

7. floating the resume: kabootar ja ja ja... kabootar
ja ja ja...
pehele pyar ki peheli chitthi...

8. finally when you don't get a better offer any
longer:
Jeena Yehaan, marna Yehaan iske siwa jaana Kahaa...!!!

Annual Day 2007::: A lot of fun amidst a lot of confusion...

2007-02-05T11:56:00.000+05:30

Ok!! Annual Day 2007, an event that I shall never forget not because it was not way too awesome, but for the fact that it was the first ever Patni Annual Day I had attended....I had a nice session across the table with Sai and Giri the night before....and it resulted in the usual...breakfast at 11...
To add to my miseries, I had to leave at like 12.30ish as I had to get there 2 hours before time, in order to get some details on what I had to compere upon..neways a bus ride to Borivali and a train ride to Jogeshwari, wasn't too exciting...My co-host Deepa, landed up late, and I am not blaming her for that, it's the company.....She got there, and it was 4, and by that time Vinod had also come along with Snehal. Annual day had started for us as soon as the drinks (ah ah drinks were cold-drinks) were being offered, and the three of us(Vinod, Snehal and I) gulped down 3, 4 glasses of all available.

Then I had to do my job, but the mikes hadn't arrived...finally it did, Deepa and me finished our job amidst all confusion....My group came along, and they were mostly found near the beverages stall...All throught the evening we kept on losing each other, amidst about 8000 people.....but finally managed to gather together before the DJ event...As the evening went ahead, along with food,boring speeches,awards,and a lot more, it was dinner time soon... The lines at the counters could probably cover the distance between Churchgate and Borivali, if all of us were made to stand in a straight line...After dinner was DJ time....Although the music was not that good, we had a lot of fun.... danced our hearts out for an hour....did a lot of shit that I cant mention about....newayz, Annual Day 2007 was an experience...

Finally at around 11 we all departed to wherever we had to go...105 patni buses going in different directions across Mumbai...All I knew was that I reached at 12.15 AM, as the ride back was home was an opportunity to catch up on a lot of lost sleep....

Cheers!!

Life in Mumbai::::::so far so good....

2007-01-29T16:55:00.000+05:30

Madness, chaos,confusion....has been my life so far....
Life s a bummer here...
Every night s a late night, every night there are new chapters in my life written, rather new songs(Vipin knows what I am talking about) ....
U name it, Its been done....

Its been Vipin, TP, Lali,Arun,Vivek,Nishanth,Anubhav,Noosh, Pratu, Dikki,Soumya,Kishore to name a few...all the way....always there for me...ever ready to help me...and every ready to take my case...

Lifes been great here....
28 day drinking spree, fights, confusions, arguments, movies, tussles all the way....
Late night train rides, standing on literally 5 toes, late night bus rides from borivali, late night visits to Noosh's place, stay overs at soum's place, pop tates after work on a sunday..... happy hours....stupid jokes....Anubhav playing games on his lappy at 3 AM, flood light cricket at 12 midnight.....that too under arm bowling....Nelly Furtado, AR Rahman in concert...Vipin goin gaga over Koena Mitra, not to forget TP...VinodMenon with his stupid rockstar smile....Noosh's weight tamil jokes, Dikki's soooper tamil vocab....Soum's and ping pong...Pratu and polka dots....Kishore and sooper sooper jokes....
Living it loving it....lots of new things to do.......

A tribute to all here with me in Mumbai... thanks guys!! U ve just made my life better...

Love ya all!!......

Abhishek+Ash Engagement ke side effects!!!

2007-01-16T11:14:00.000+05:30

This was something that was speculated, but still Mumbai's not recovered from the hangover of Abishek's and Ash' s engagement. Reading through the newspapers, and watching news channel has made me truly realise the impact of Bollywood on Mumbai.

It was late sunday night, and Vipin and I were watching I don't know what....as we continued moving from channel to channel, we saw a flash news flickering at the bottom of every news channel. It was no shock to us, that Ash and AB Jr. were engaged, but the whole of Mumbai had been taken by surprise. Over the next half an hour we, realised the impact of the event combined with the media on the Mumbaikars.

These are some of the hilarious statements we heard that night.......

A local man: "Jaise hi humne yeh khabar suni, mere padosi ne kaha ki hamein Amitabh ji ke ghar jana chahiya, aur hum apne ghar se nikal ke aaye, hamara ghar 20 km door hai par humein aana hi tha"(This was a 12.00 midnight)
( for those who find it tough interpreting this ill translate it: The man said that as soon as he heard the news of the engagement, his neighbour told him that they should go to Amitabh's house, and they left immediately from their place which was about 20 kms away from Jalsa(AB's house in Juhu)) ...for what joy??? Vipin and I wondered "at 12.00 in the night??")

The reality behind the situation is that even when the local man was standing outside with a mob, of similar people like him.... the the Bachchan's the Rai's the Ambani's all were having a party inside Big B's house...

Its sad that the people let these emotions overshadow practicalities of life..........

The next, was something that caught our eye and I guess we shall laugh over this for a week::
The TV channel had interviewed, guess who: a pandit, on how their marriage would turn out to be:

We made something outta this:

PAndit: Abishek ke Shukra aur Aishwarya ke guru ko dekh ke lagta hai ki unki shaadi mangal ko honi chahiye:::

I mean get a life: Interviewing a pandit...why why??? What the hell is wrong with these media people??? Leave the pandit's alone atleast!!!

Thirdly, the media going gaga over how, when, where, Abhishek proposed Ash, who he called first after that, what he told them, how did his parents react, her parents reaction, what his mother made for dinner at the party......and a lot more crap......

The news that tops them all, on how the Bachchan's have taken Ash's kiss (with Hrithik Roshan in Dhoom 2), in the right way, although they were a bit unhappy about it in the beginning.......

Trust me, you live in Mumbai, newspapers and TV will keep you going for a day...but make sure you keep your head above your shoulder's!!!!

GURU!!! A must see!!!

2007-01-15T10:20:00.002+05:30

After a move to Mumbai, my usual week ends with a movie on Friday night, the late 11 P.M movies at a Cinemax near my house. There s a usual bunch, about 10 of us, who make it to late friday night movies, happy about the fact that we have a weekend to sleep......this friday was GURU.... and the movie turned to be a as expected. The movie has AB Jr. and the love of his life, Ash...(now that they are engaged :-) , i can say that).....GURU is a story of a guy, who lives to fulfil his dreams ( AB Jr.). The move starts with a steamy number by Mallika Sherawat, and continues with AB Jr. ruling the screen. AB Jr. has acted really really well I must say and Ash for once has looked charming , and natural. The highlight of the movie has to AR Rahman's music. The movie apart from the controversies its been assosiated with, is a great one..... I liked it and i guess many of you guys will.....

Shame Warne????!!!!!!!!

2006-12-27T16:32:00.000+05:30

After Shane Warne announceD that he would be retiring from cricket after the ashes, there has been great speculation whether Warne should be given the immense amount of respect he is given and whether he should be considered as the greatest ever of all times!!!!This is primarily due to various footages and photos publishes over the last couple of years which revealed his casanova kinda image.

Warne has taken over 700 wickets for Australia, and has been one of the best spinners in the world for a long time now! This rare feat achieved by him, has always been overshadowed by his not so gentleman nature. Does media really have the right to dig into his personal life, and tarnish his image? If it had been any other individual, I don't think they would have taken so much of interest into his life!I mean he man has done something that no one else has ever done before, mind you 700 wickets is not a joke!!! Does his private life come over what he has achieved? I no way think that a feat like this can be overruled! What he has given to Australia is a creditable achievement by far!!

Is it right to call him SHAME WARNE?

Larsson to move!!!

2006-12-05T17:16:00.000+05:30

Its true.. and its been termed as 'good business' for Manchester United. Sir Alex has got Henrik Larsson, the Celtic and Ex-Barcelona striker on loan to Old Trafford. Larsson will be on loan with the reds from 1st of Jan 2007 to the 12th of March.

This results in Man U having as many as 6 strikers, in the new year.

Keep going Red Devils!!!!.......................

Well Defined!!!

2006-12-05T03:29:00.000+05:30

A few definations that I came across while reading my company's intranet site:

Cigarette: A pinch of tobacco rolled in paper with fire at one end and fool on the other.

Lecture: An art of transferring information from the notes of the lecturer to the notes of the students without passing through the minds of either.

Conference: the confusion of one man multiplied by the number present.

Compromise: The art of dividing the cake in such a way that everyone believes that he has got the biggest piece.

Tears: The hydraulic force by which masculine willpower is defeated by Feminine waterpower.......

Conference Room: A place where everyone talks ,nobody listens and everybody disagrees later on....

Office: A place where you can relax after your home life.

Committee: Individuals who can do nothing individually and sit and decide nothing can be done together.

Philosopher: A fool who torments himself during life, to be spoken of when dead.

Opportunist: A person who starts taking a bath if he accidently falls into the river.

Father: A banker provided by nature.

Criminal: A guy who is no different from the rest, except that he is caught.

Politician: A person who shakes your hand befor elections, and confidence after.

COLDPLAY to go on a world tour!!!

2006-12-04T10:35:00.000+05:30

Latin American Coldplay fans will be the first to here their now material when Coldplay kicks of a tour to Argentine, Mexico, Chile early next year.Coldplay will start their tour with a performance on Valentine's Day in Chile. Their tour will come to an end on March 3rd when they perform their last show in Mexico.!!!

DADA-Giri is bak!!!

2006-12-01T17:03:00.000+05:30

Many would have been expecting the return of DADA aka Sourav Ganguly into the Indian cricket team after their dismal performance in the one-dayers at South Africa!!! A 3-0 battering is not something to b proud of!!!!

The whole plan of grooming the youngsters before the World Cup has gone for a toss, and I guess the selecters are relying on the experience of Sourav Ganguly and VVS Laxman now. But the question here is whether Ganguly can live up to the faith that the selectors have invested in him! I guess after the 3-0 beating the selectors dont have a choice. also Ganguly has not got enough runs under his belt in the domestic circuit.
Ganguly's 144 at Brisbane in Australia is one of the best innings he's ever played, and no one doubts his potential as a batsman. But does he have the mental toughness to face the present day format of the game????? His reply to this is that if he can play in Australia then he can very well play in SA.
The answer to all or questions will come out clear once the test series gets underway!!!I just hope he proves his critics wrong and comes through not because I am fond of him, but just because the Indian team needs a few wins under their belt!!

Lets all hope for the best!!!!

New interests in life!!!

2006-12-01T14:14:00.000+05:30

After the move to mumbai, there are a lot of things I have learnt, one of them being hindi shayaris....and I owe it to my friend Arun....

Safed sadi aur lal bindi mein,
maa kasam tum ambulance nazar aati ho,
Ambulance to ghayalon ko le jate hain,
Par tum dil ko ghayal karke jaati ho!!!!

Tumhe dekh ke hum,
sharma ke muh pher lete hain,
Tumhari zulfon ko choo nahin sakte par,
Apni daadhi mein haath pher lete hain!!!!!!!!!!!!

A day I'll never forget!!

2006-11-30T16:33:00.000+05:30

During college I was posted at Patni Computer Systems, and the company had given Mumbai as my location..... This was I think the 1st of September, I had just reached Dadar at around 630 in the morning!!!.....
Mumbai life at 630 is unthinkable, there is confusion all around you...

Coming bak to my story!! I had to go my friends place in Chembur , and I had with me 2 heavy baggages!!! One sardar came upto me and he asked me where I wanted to go....I told him where I wanted to! He took me to his taxi where there were 2 other sardars... this was turning out to be a little scary!! Both of them were 6 ft must be weighin about 90 kgs each....

As I got into the taxi, the guys got into a conv. with me and asked me for a change of 1000 bucks, They needed 2 500's!!!
I gave it to them, and I got a 1000 rupee note in return!! After a while , probably abt 300 meters from the station, the guys tell me that it would cost about 300 rupess to get to chembur, when I very well knew that it would cost me 100 rupees by cab.

I told them to stop the car, and checked their 1000 buck note, it turned out to be fake.... I stopped the car, it turned into a little argument, and finally there stood a mob of people around me...

The local crowd helped me out of the confusion, I got my 2 500 buck notes back, and i caught another taxi bak home!!

Its true that 90% of mumbai is honest but the 10% compensate for the rest of the crowd!!!!

Lights will guide you home.......

2006-11-30T15:54:00.000+05:30

I guess this has been my all time favorite band and I have been listening to one song again and again and again..........
Its called Fix yuou by Coldplay and the more number of times I listen to it, the more i like it.....

I just got the lyrics from the web and it goes as follows:

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse.

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

And high up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream, down on your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Tears stream, down on your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down on your face
And I..

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.................