Sigh!!

Here I am sitting in class, it is weird, it is miserable, I don’t know why I am sitting in class. Somehow I feel wasted, and screwed. My mind doesn’t work, my heart doesn’t pound anymore.. I was living, someone told me last night I need to live again. Where is all the vigor? Where has all my interest gone? I feel , I can’t put it in words… I feel weak, and completely bored with life. I feel like I don’t want to survive, I want this course to get over… I thought MBA was the best time in someone’s life, for me it is turning out to be the worst. I cannot seem to figure out what is going wrong.. I somehow can… It seems pointless. Life’s a bitch… I can’t get sleep, it takes me an hour to fall asleep after lying down, the smiles are fake, the smiles are a cover for what is inside – I feel I have no one who understands me… Everyone around me seems to be running ahead at a faster pace than I am, everyone around me seems to be charging ahead, and look at me stuck where I am… it feels more bad, it feels worse, just an addition to my woes. God! When will this end… This is not me.. This is so not me.. I somehow miss my life, I wish I could turn back time… Sigh L

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I came to this course with great energy... I feel I am not doing justice to the course.. I feel I am doing nothing, and I am wasted.. there's something missing, I know what it is, which is out of my hands and control...Sigh...

I hate tennis...

Game, set and match... it is the end... it is... and i dont like it one bit...

Nameless...

Today is a holiday,I am groggy... I woke up... an I have a weird thought up my mind - Whenever you are close to someone, and they try pushing you away from them with whatever they do... you end up getting closer to them. Fact of life being, you never can run away from things you don't want to.

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I dont know why I am writing this post, probably the MBA education is getting a little too over my head... You know what, I was sitting in class today missing my friends and few more people in life who would make me smile any single day. The chosen few who would make me smile and bring life into me any single day. A person who I would do everything for, I dont want to take names, but the person would definitely know who I am talking about. There are times in life, when we do good things and great things, but life still feels so incomplete without those people. The person who would keep me going all the time, life feels so wasted without them so meaningless. God Bless them with all happiness and care and love. I would just wait again and again till i talk to them the next time.

What do I say??

I am missing a voice... Its weird... I am zonked... Its weird when you have no control over decisions, and there is not much you can do!!!

Life and its state in trance...!!!

So here I am, today being the 23rd of July... In four days is my mom's birthday...I hope i continue to remember it for the next four days cos this has been striking me in spurts... the work load is high... I need a break....Multiple people around me with multiple emotions...

I am just happy, plain happy... my life is good... very good... things are settling, I just need to get my acads in place... I know i can still do better...

The only thing that worries me is the emotions of people around me... One of them is very very tensed... very occupied.... one is very happy for her friends, one is confused with trivial issues... the question lies... how do I help all of them keeping my emotions intact??? Hope for the best... I know each emotions relates to one person... and the persons will know when they read this....

MBS is great, the term is going to end... there is a week and half remaining... there are loads of exams... I cant wait for the next term to get started.... I cant believe a quarter of my course is already over :O...