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I do not know what the caption means, I do not know what life means, I do not know what world means, I do not know what love means.... I do not know anything, nothing, everything, nobody, somebody, anybody.... Well that is what this is , do I even know what I am writing here??? How does it feel when life backfires on your face, how does it feel when everynight you go to bed, you got a thought in your mind, when you wake up, you think exactly the opposite... how do you feel when you know within yourself that you are an extremely vulnerable, defenseless, susceptible, and you hit rock bottom... you find yourself probably 10 feet inside the ground, you itch on doing things you cant do...you wish on a million things which dont happen... you like the glossy outside picture, but you feel sick, franctic, frenzied from within.... You know your true self from inside, you can hide that from the world - at the same time you run from yourself... What do you do when you see your inner conscience laughing at you... I wouldnt say laughing, but I would say ridiculing, mocking.... Its insane, I dont know... It is like the world is at one end and you at the other.... it is like my nerves my heart, my brain, my body is all strectchin two ways apart... and pulling you down... What do i do, what do i do, what do i do.... its like a bell that rings for eternity...